Is been a time!!

Well, is been a time I did not come here already.. Recently busy with internship and travel around Malaysia.. Still the same things happened around me which I'm quite happy.. The same thing surround me is still her but I'm getting better and better.. I tried to let go and get into my new life.. Sometime, I felt that I can get into a new relationship as I get to know some good girl.. However, something weird will happened when I try to know about the girl.. Her stuff or news will get to me from no where or I will accidentally saw her picture.. Is it this girl not suit me so I get to this kind of weird thing like last time.. Haha.. Seriously, I would like to get into a new relationship but not to forget her.. Is I really wanna find a girl to cuddle her, care about her, love her in the way we want, and many more.. Sometime I felt warm and touch when I saw some couple so sweet.. I will thought back my past but is still a past.. So, I'm just looking forward only.. There are good girl in my office which my boss encourage me to chase her but the matter is I don't have the feeling or intention to start as I have no feelings towards the girl.. Anyway, just leave it to the timing and it will reach when the time is here.. Haha..

Past > Present > Future

Bygone will be bygone, just let it go as the life still going on.. Sadness in the past will just make you learn from it and get growth to face the future.. In the meantime, enjoy the happiness you have for the moment as it might not happen again.. Do not give up due to the sadness or failure.. 

The things you have decided to do will not be regret as you already know what might end up.. Once decided, go ahead and try to get the answer rather than doing nothing.. 

With confidence, nothing can't be done as you already know what to do and how to do.. Present your most valuable and precious treasures in yourself.. 

Future will be brighter when you have directions and you have prepare to fight for the future.. Do not fear failure and be friend with failure.. With this, you will know what to do next.. 

Life is always like a paper.. Each paper represent a chapter or a story in your life.. When all the papers compile together, it will become your life story.. 

Each paper can be a story of happy or sad or anything.. It can be drawn by yourself or with anyone in your life that you think they can be part of your story.. Create your own story with wonderful and colorful story line.. Don't waste the paper as it will be very important in your life.. 

Normal / As Usual / Anything

Normally, final exam is going on now. This semester is going to end soon. Actually, I do anticipated to end it as soon as possible because I wish to graduate faster and go earn more money and travel more. However, I'm worrying and scare because I started to have less confidence in my study. In another view, I did not give up myself as I'm still working hard and do my best in the exam. This is all because I want to graduate and there is still a year to go only. Fighting!! 

As usual, my brain to have think of her sometime but is really sometime when certain things happened around me. Nothing special, just some sweet memories when we together and not to mention the bad things. However, all this I do really letting go as time flies and no stop. She is getting fade from my life because I can sense that as is my feelings. She is not anyone to me as I can't being influence by her any more. I'm getting my life back here. I feel happy for what's going on. Seriously, I do. 

Anything, something happened in this semester. I met with a girl in the campus during the classes. A girl who always appeared around me. In the beginning, I just be normal as is something normal, but when we get to know each other existing, we smile to each other whenever we meet in campus. Too bad is I don't even know what is her name. What a joke? Anyway, is okay as I guess we will still have chance to meet and get to know each other and just let it be. No forcing as I get scared from what I have been through. 

"Smile a smile, everything will be fine & smooth" 

Clear Mind

Clear mind to go through the final exam for this semester.. One more year to go and I will end my university life.. Gambateh..

Recently ~ ~

Recently, many people around me asking the same question which I always asking myself too. They asked me, "Got new target? Got girlfriend?". I'm thinking why they ask me but don't know, maybe they curious. However, I'm asking myself too and I'm answering that maybe now I don't really want to start a relationship first even I got target. Don't really know why but for sure, I want to keep on earning money for some purpose, I still got some problem in my heart, I want to keep my life as simple as possible although got girlfriend is something happy and sweet. I won't purposely go chase someone but if the faith is here, then I just let it be. Yes, there are many girls around me. They are pretty and good and nice. What I do is just leave it to God first where I don't want to do any decision right now. 

Recently, exam is around corner. Stress, who don't have? It is something very common and a thing to motivate you to move forward. Is not easy but we have no choice except doing it in a better ways. Therefore, we need to find a balancing point in order to keep our works to be completed in a smooth ways. Don't so easily give up on it. It will not help you at all which might cause you more problems. Say no and bye to stress. 

Emo!!

Emotion is something very funny.. It can be happy, sad, good or bad.. It can be come at anytime and go at anytime.. However, emotion is something that reveal what you feel now.. It can be your good friend or useless friend.. You still need emotion in your life.. 

Who do not have emotion?? You?? Me?? Anyone?? 

Everyone beside me have emotion and me do have emotion lose.. 

Why everyone thought I'm strong enough and no emotion?? 

Sometime, I wish to be weak too.. 

Sometime, I wish to be pampers too.. 

No need much, at least listen to me speak.. 

Everyone have stress and emotion even hard feelings when facing some difficulty.. 

Don't forget, me will have same thing too as I'm a human being too.. 

Anyway, is hard for me to express it out where no one willing to listen to me say much.. 

There are only 1 person left in this world would listen to me and that is myself.. 

All this while I have been through all this stuff.. 

I have used to it and know how to handle.. 

Although will sad and unhappy, I still go through my life with a smile.. 

Looking at all my friends, I wish you all will not so emo so much as it's really not a good exercise.. Be happy, be cheerful, and enjoy your life while you still have time before committed into anything.. 

Digging Out !!

Last night, I went to a drinking session where one of my friend, who are going to graduated soon ask me out.. Although I'm a bit busy with assignment, I still went out to join them.. Everything is going smooth at first, but things getting change once I know what happened to her.. She suddenly told me that she broke up with her bf.. I get shocked at first and started to curious of why as I saw she just have a good time and good trip with her bf last month.. Anyway, I just accompany her and stay beside her to crazy with her and others.. I did not drink much as I know I need to work on my stuff later.. So, they all drink as well as her.. I just take care of her and chat with her friend..

Anyhow, she get to drunk but still not that dizzy.. She started to cry as she hold it for a whole day as she don't want to be like that stupid look.. But failed, she cried.. haha.. Many of us talk to her, listen to her, comfort her.. She just need someone to accompany her..

After the first round, left few of us.. We went to second round where we have some supper at 3am.. Then left both of us to chat at a corner.. I listen to her to express out.. She said that, "I felt myself really sohai lo.. Am I?? I be patience, I turn to be good, I put a lot of effort, in return, what I get? All this kind of shit.. I really very pain in my heart.. I want to cry out but I try not to cry as I don't want to be weak.. very suffer.. bla bla bla.."

After listen to what she said, I smile to her and ask her, "you think you really sohai ma?? do you think that there are people more suffer than you and more stupid than you?? have you think that, at least you got a clear answer that why you two will break up and is better than someone who don't have the answer or the answer is ridiculous.." I keep on smiling to her and comfort her as well as myself.. at that time, I can totally understand her feelings as my feelings is the same with her..

She asking why she put so many effort and at the end, she get nothing.. She believe that they can go until the end of life but why all this happened to her.. Is good to believe this statement but all this have make her life miserable as she lost her faith on this.. I don't know what to told her on this matter as I have lost it too.. Honestly, I have put down and let go everything about her in my life but not in my heart.. Last night, my friend do make me think of her, how she treated me, how she talked to me, how she be cold to me.. End up, I smile to myself, and I tell myself, "hong leong, is already a pass.. let bygone be bygone.. life still ahead you.. be strong and be tough.."

Although all this is not happened on me right now but I can sense what my friend's feelings.. What she can do now is time.. Time will help her to get rid from all this suffering.. I hope she can do it and do not give up.. nothing is stupid especially in love matter.. Love is like that, BLIND.. haha.. Gambateh together la..

My Birthday Celebration

5 January 2013

Is my 23 birthday in my life.. I just realized that the year is 2013 and I'm 23.. When next year is 2014, I will be 24 and so on from now onward.. Quite nice when I think of it.. Nothing special but I like it.. Haha.. 

My 23 birthday doesn't celebrate in a big big way or how special is it.. I slept until 11a.m. in the morning and woke up for breakfast with Gary.. After breakfast, we go back and start our work in painting the new house.. Until late night about 9p.m., we go for our dinner.. Just 4 of us, Gary, Celine, Wai Heng and myself.. We went to Euro House for our meal and some beer.. A treat from Gary as my birthday celebration.. Thank you to him for the treat.. Haha.. The dinner is fantastic as the environment is very good and got music.. 

However, this birthday is nothing much as I don't really celebrate for every time.. Just a simple birthday also need to go on with what I need to do.. Anyway, I thank's each of my friends who sms or wish me in facebook.. I got some stupid thought on that day.. Is really stupid but I have stop that kind of thought on the spot.. I think she will wish me but in fact, I know this won't happen.. So, I just leave it aside and be happy.. I know that she was very happy and happy now.. I can sense that even we are disconnected.. Anyhow, the happier is she, the faster I hope I will forget her.. I always delete my memories once I think of her.. But I will work hard to go through my life as I got more and more to go.. 

A year older, another new chapter to go.. 

A year older, another mission to go.. 

A year older, another dream to make..

A year older, another what what la.. 

Happy New Year 2013

New Year is here.. Bye bye 2012 and welcome 2013.. Hope all the people around me will have a better life and wonderful life too.. However, here is some of my wishes for 2013..

First wishes will be for my family.. I hope my parents will be healthy and be happy always.. Most important is they no need to be having hard life soon as 3 of us are getting out to society for our long term life.. For my sister, hope she doing well in her career as career life is not easy.. Just stay strong and be tough.. For little brother, nothing much but just be more steady in doing everything and think well..

Second wishes will be dedicated to Ling2.. To someone who I love in deep before.. I hope and wish she will be doing great in her life and the one who love her now can give her happiness and take care her.. Nothing much from now on as I wouldn't do anything more.. Just want her to be happy and my memories towards her will be deleted day by day.. Happy all the time to her..

Third wishes will be to all my friends.. Stay happy, Stay healthy, Stay hello to 2013.. Haha.. May all go to the best in 2013 and everything in 2012 will be a sweet and nice memories..

Fourth wishes will be to my friend, Kimberly.. Be tough, Be strong, Be happy.. Nothing much I will say as I trust on you can carry on your life and do much more better in future.. Hehe..

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2013..