Normal / As Usual / Anything

Normally, final exam is going on now. This semester is going to end soon. Actually, I do anticipated to end it as soon as possible because I wish to graduate faster and go earn more money and travel more. However, I'm worrying and scare because I started to have less confidence in my study. In another view, I did not give up myself as I'm still working hard and do my best in the exam. This is all because I want to graduate and there is still a year to go only. Fighting!! 

As usual, my brain to have think of her sometime but is really sometime when certain things happened around me. Nothing special, just some sweet memories when we together and not to mention the bad things. However, all this I do really letting go as time flies and no stop. She is getting fade from my life because I can sense that as is my feelings. She is not anyone to me as I can't being influence by her any more. I'm getting my life back here. I feel happy for what's going on. Seriously, I do. 

Anything, something happened in this semester. I met with a girl in the campus during the classes. A girl who always appeared around me. In the beginning, I just be normal as is something normal, but when we get to know each other existing, we smile to each other whenever we meet in campus. Too bad is I don't even know what is her name. What a joke? Anyway, is okay as I guess we will still have chance to meet and get to know each other and just let it be. No forcing as I get scared from what I have been through. 

"Smile a smile, everything will be fine & smooth" 

Clear Mind

Clear mind to go through the final exam for this semester.. One more year to go and I will end my university life.. Gambateh..

Recently ~ ~

Recently, many people around me asking the same question which I always asking myself too. They asked me, "Got new target? Got girlfriend?". I'm thinking why they ask me but don't know, maybe they curious. However, I'm asking myself too and I'm answering that maybe now I don't really want to start a relationship first even I got target. Don't really know why but for sure, I want to keep on earning money for some purpose, I still got some problem in my heart, I want to keep my life as simple as possible although got girlfriend is something happy and sweet. I won't purposely go chase someone but if the faith is here, then I just let it be. Yes, there are many girls around me. They are pretty and good and nice. What I do is just leave it to God first where I don't want to do any decision right now. 

Recently, exam is around corner. Stress, who don't have? It is something very common and a thing to motivate you to move forward. Is not easy but we have no choice except doing it in a better ways. Therefore, we need to find a balancing point in order to keep our works to be completed in a smooth ways. Don't so easily give up on it. It will not help you at all which might cause you more problems. Say no and bye to stress. 

Emo!!

Emotion is something very funny.. It can be happy, sad, good or bad.. It can be come at anytime and go at anytime.. However, emotion is something that reveal what you feel now.. It can be your good friend or useless friend.. You still need emotion in your life.. 

Who do not have emotion?? You?? Me?? Anyone?? 

Everyone beside me have emotion and me do have emotion lose.. 

Why everyone thought I'm strong enough and no emotion?? 

Sometime, I wish to be weak too.. 

Sometime, I wish to be pampers too.. 

No need much, at least listen to me speak.. 

Everyone have stress and emotion even hard feelings when facing some difficulty.. 

Don't forget, me will have same thing too as I'm a human being too.. 

Anyway, is hard for me to express it out where no one willing to listen to me say much.. 

There are only 1 person left in this world would listen to me and that is myself.. 

All this while I have been through all this stuff.. 

I have used to it and know how to handle.. 

Although will sad and unhappy, I still go through my life with a smile.. 

Looking at all my friends, I wish you all will not so emo so much as it's really not a good exercise.. Be happy, be cheerful, and enjoy your life while you still have time before committed into anything..