Digging Out !!

Last night, I went to a drinking session where one of my friend, who are going to graduated soon ask me out.. Although I'm a bit busy with assignment, I still went out to join them.. Everything is going smooth at first, but things getting change once I know what happened to her.. She suddenly told me that she broke up with her bf.. I get shocked at first and started to curious of why as I saw she just have a good time and good trip with her bf last month.. Anyway, I just accompany her and stay beside her to crazy with her and others.. I did not drink much as I know I need to work on my stuff later.. So, they all drink as well as her.. I just take care of her and chat with her friend..

Anyhow, she get to drunk but still not that dizzy.. She started to cry as she hold it for a whole day as she don't want to be like that stupid look.. But failed, she cried.. haha.. Many of us talk to her, listen to her, comfort her.. She just need someone to accompany her..

After the first round, left few of us.. We went to second round where we have some supper at 3am.. Then left both of us to chat at a corner.. I listen to her to express out.. She said that, "I felt myself really sohai lo.. Am I?? I be patience, I turn to be good, I put a lot of effort, in return, what I get? All this kind of shit.. I really very pain in my heart.. I want to cry out but I try not to cry as I don't want to be weak.. very suffer.. bla bla bla.."

After listen to what she said, I smile to her and ask her, "you think you really sohai ma?? do you think that there are people more suffer than you and more stupid than you?? have you think that, at least you got a clear answer that why you two will break up and is better than someone who don't have the answer or the answer is ridiculous.." I keep on smiling to her and comfort her as well as myself.. at that time, I can totally understand her feelings as my feelings is the same with her..

She asking why she put so many effort and at the end, she get nothing.. She believe that they can go until the end of life but why all this happened to her.. Is good to believe this statement but all this have make her life miserable as she lost her faith on this.. I don't know what to told her on this matter as I have lost it too.. Honestly, I have put down and let go everything about her in my life but not in my heart.. Last night, my friend do make me think of her, how she treated me, how she talked to me, how she be cold to me.. End up, I smile to myself, and I tell myself, "hong leong, is already a pass.. let bygone be bygone.. life still ahead you.. be strong and be tough.."

Although all this is not happened on me right now but I can sense what my friend's feelings.. What she can do now is time.. Time will help her to get rid from all this suffering.. I hope she can do it and do not give up.. nothing is stupid especially in love matter.. Love is like that, BLIND.. haha.. Gambateh together la..